Well….here’s the thing. I am turning 50 and I am not sure how to feel about things. On one hand I am totally freaking out and on the other I think I am still pretty hot and don’t look at all 50 years old.
Most days I feel ok but last night I received an AARP application in the mail and totally lost it. I was bawling like a baby —– see I can’t be 50 if I am crying like a baby, right?
I have been trying to think about what I wanted to do to celebrate the fact that I am turning the big 5-0 and couldn’t come up with anything. I somehow suspect that if I didn’t come up with anything it would all go away. Well, it’s January and only 13 more days until “B-day” and I think I might be coming to terms with it. I say “might” because I still feel a hissy fit coming on, but I have finally found something to do for my birthday that I am excited about.
I spent an hour or so with an old boss/friend of mine yesterday and we were catching up. I had brought my dog to meet him and we were just chatting about this and that. I told him I was turning 50 and freaking out a bit. He said that I should just have a big party and I asked him if I could host it at his house (it’s beautiful) and he said, “of course”. It was settled, I was going to have a big birthday bash as this amazing house in San Francisco and I am now getting excited. I started planning what I was going to serve and things I was going to do and I started feeling happy about my birthday.
I love having parties, spending time fixing up the house, preparing food for everyone, making sure there is something for everyone and buying all the alcohol and non-alcohol so everyone has what they love. I just love putting on a good party! I love talking to people and spending time with my friends.
I came home after spending the time with my friend and put together and evite and sent it out. I am already getting people rsvp-ing and it seems like everyone will be able to make it. I am still freaking out a bit about this birthday but I think I will be ok. I think I will make it through and once I get to the other side of 50 I’ll be just fine.
This is a picture from my encaustic painting show from 2 weeks ago.